What if putting down the wine wasn't the end of your journey... but the beginning of coming home to yourself?
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Hosted by alcohol recovery and trauma-informed coach Megan Webb, each episode explores what really lies beneath the drinking: core wounds, limiting beliefs, nervous system dysregulation, people-pleasing, perfectionism, toxic relationships, and the patterns that keep us stuck.
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Rejection can feel brutal, but the most painful part is often what we make it mean about us. If “no” instantly translates to “I’m not enough”, it can shape everything: the way we text, the way we speak up, the way we pick partners, and the way we silence our needs to avoid conflict. We sit with that fear honestly and name the pattern many of us know too well: searching outside ourselves for proof that we’re okay.
We trace rejection sensitivity back to early experiences of criticism, inconsistency, emotional disconnection, comparison, bullying, or feeling like love had conditions. Those experiences can quietly form core beliefs that follow us into adulthood, even when life looks stable on paper. From there, we dig into people pleasing, why “being nice” can become a mask for fear, and how “safe” relationships aren’t always emotionally healthy. We also reframe rejection as something that’s often about fit, values, timing, or capacity rather than a verdict on your worth.
We then talk coping and why alcohol can become a shortcut to numb feelings we don’t yet know how to hold. The deeper shift we’re aiming for is simple and challenging: not a life with zero rejection, but a life where we trust we can survive it without rejecting ourselves. You’ll leave with practical prompts, including the question that can change a decision in real time: what would I do right now if I wasn’t afraid of being rejected? If this resonates, share it with someone who needs it, subscribe, and please leave a rating and review.
Hey everyone. Today's episode is about rejection. I want to start by asking you, have you ever noticed how much of your life can be shaped by the fear of someone not choosing you? Maybe you don't say what you really think because you're worried someone will disagree. Maybe you don't ask for what you need because you're scared they'll say no. Maybe you stay quiet when something hurts you because you're terrified that speaking up will create conflict. Maybe you overthink texts. Maybe you replay conversations in your head. Maybe you constantly wonder whether someone is upset with you. Or maybe, like me, you've spent a lot of your life trying to be the girl or woman that other people will like. Because underneath all of that can be one very powerful fear. What if they reject me? So today I want to talk about why rejection can feel so damn frightening. Because I don't think most of us are actually afraid of rejection itself. I think we're afraid of what rejection means about us. And that distinction is really important. Because someone saying no to you doesn't actually mean you're not enough. Someone not choosing you doesn't mean you're unlovable. Someone not liking you doesn't mean there's something wrong with you. But if you've grown up believing, consciously or subconsciously, that your worth comes from being accepted, loved, wanted, or approved of by other people, then rejection can feel like a threat to your entire identity. And I so know that feeling. You start looking outside yourself for evidence that you're okay. Do they like me? Are they happy with me? Did I say the right thing? Are they annoyed with me? Do they still want me? Am I enough? And when you're constantly looking outside yourself for reassurance, rejection becomes terrifying. Because you're not just hearing no, you're hearing you're not good enough. And those are two completely different
things. So where does this come from? Why do some people seem to handle rejection relatively well or really well, while others can be completely devastated by it? Often it goes much deeper than the situation that's happening right then. Our relationship with rejection can begin very early. As
children, we are wired for connection. We need other people. We need our caregivers. We need to feel loved, accepted, and safe. And when we experience rejection, criticism, inconsistency, emotional disconnection, comparison, bullying, abandonment, or simply the feeling that we have to behave a certain way to receive love and approval, we can start forming beliefs about ourselves. So these might be like, I'm not good enough, I'm too much, I'm not interesting enough, I'm difficult, I'm not lovable, I have to be good to be loved, I have to keep everyone happy. And sometimes nobody ever actually says these things to us. We just learn them and then we carry those beliefs into adulthood. So you might be a grown woman with a career, children, responsibilities, life experience, and still have a part of you that is absolutely terrified that someone is going to say, You're not enough. And that's why rejection can feel so disproportionate. The event might be small, but the wound underneath it isn't.
I can see this really clearly in my own relationships. Before I found myself in a really toxic relationship, I tended to choose relationships where I felt safe. And when I say safe, I don't necessarily mean emotionally healthy. I mean relationships where I didn't feel hugely at risk of rejection. I wasn't constantly being challenged. I wasn't having to expose huge parts of myself. And I think my low self-esteem played a huge part in that. Because when you're afraid of rejection, you can unconsciously make choices that minimize the possibility of it. You don't necessarily choose the person who challenges you to grow. You choose the person who feels comfortable. You choose the situation where you know where you stand. You choose what feels familiar. And sometimes what feels familiar isn't actually what is healthy. It's just what your nervous system recognizes. And then in my 40s, I found myself in a relationship that was very different. A relationship where I began questioning myself constantly. And that fear of rejection became amplified. Because when someone can make you feel that their love, approval, or acceptance is conditional, you can become incredibly focused on keeping them happy. You start monitoring them, you start monitoring yourself. Did I say something wrong? Should I have handled that differently? Maybe I shouldn't have said that. Maybe I was too sensitive. Maybe I should apologize. And suddenly you're not living your life. And in fact, I can recognize in my marriage, I would sometimes test my partner's love. You know, um, just I wanted him to show that I was worthy. I needed external validation, and that's exhausting.
So this is where people pleasing comes in. Because people pleasing isn't necessarily about being a nice person. There's nothing wrong with being kind, don't get me wrong, and there's nothing wrong with caring about other people's feelings. The problem is when keeping somebody else happy becomes more important than being honest and true to yourself. When you say yes because you're terrified of saying no, when you apologize when you haven't done anything wrong, when you change your opinion because someone disagrees with you, when you don't express your needs because you're afraid they'll leave, when you stay in situations that make you unhappy because the alternative, being rejected, feels even more frightening. And sometimes people pleasing looks incredibly successful from the outside. You're the reliable one, the nice one, the one who always helps, the one who never causes trouble, the one everyone can count on. But inside you're exhausted because you're constantly performing. And eventually you have to ask yourself, who am I when I'm not trying to make everyone else happy? That's a big question. So rejection doesn't actually mean what we think it means. One of the things I've had to learn is that rejection is not always a verdict on your worth. Sometimes people don't choose you because you're just not right for them. Sometimes people don't understand you. Sometimes your values don't align. Sometimes somebody doesn't have the capacity to give you what you need. Sometimes somebody simply doesn't like you, and that's okay. Because here's something I've had to learn. I don't have to be liked by everyone, and neither do you. Imagine trying to create a life where nobody ever rejects you. You'd have to become really small, you'd have to constantly adapt yourself. You'd have to avoid conflict, you'd have to avoid expressing opinions, you'd have to avoid asking for too much, and you'd have to avoid saying no. You'd also have to avoid taking risks and being completely yourself. That's that's where I ended up. And what kind of life is that? You might end up avoiding rejection, but you also avoid being fully alive.
So maybe a question to ask isn't how do I stop being afraid of rejection? Maybe the better question is, what do I believe rejection says about me? And this is the core wounds I talk a lot about, because that's where the work is. If someone rejects me and my immediate thought is I'm not good enough, then that's something worth exploring. Where did I learn that? Who taught me that? What happened that made me believe that? And is that actually true? Because you can have a belief for 50 years and still have it be completely untrue, but your subconscious feels like it's the truth. And just because you've believed something for a long time doesn't make it a fact. And
this is also where I think alcohol can come into the conversation because alcohol can become a way of managing the feelings we don't know how to sit with. And rejection is a big one. Maybe you get rejected, maybe someone doesn't text back, maybe your relationship is falling apart, or you're lonely and feel unwanted. Maybe you feel like you're not enough, and suddenly that familiar thought appears. I need a drink. I need to numb this because the drink doesn't necessarily solve the rejection, it changes how you feel about the rejection. It temporarily numb it. And that's an important distinction that alcohol isn't necessarily the original problem. It can be the coping mechanism. And that's something I know very well from my own experience with alcohol. I spent years using alcohol to change how I felt, to switch off, to escape, to numb. And eventually I had to become curious about what I was actually trying to escape from. Because if we only take away the behavior without understanding what's underneath it, we can miss the bigger picture.
So here's the shift I want to offer to you. Maybe the goal isn't to become someone who never feels rejected. Maybe the goal is to become someone who knows I can survive being rejected. And also that it's not personal to my worth. That's very different. I can be disappointed, I can be hurt, I can cry, I can feel sad, embarrassed, angry, and I can still be okay. Someone can reject me and I don't have to reject myself. That's really important because sometimes the person who hurts us the most after rejection isn't the other person. It's us. We tell ourselves we're stupid, we're unlovable, we're embarrassing, we're not good enough, we're too fat, we're not pretty enough, we'll never find anyone else, we're too old, we're too much. That was a big one for me. We're not interesting enough, and we pile rejection on top of rejection. So what if instead we could say, that hurt? I didn't get what I wanted. I really liked that person. I wanted them to choose me, and I am disappointed, but this doesn't define my worth. That's how we start building self-trust.
There's another piece of this that I think is incredibly important for women. Sometimes you have to learn how to disappoint people. And I know that sounds a bit strange, but if you spent your whole life trying to make everybody happy, learning to tolerate somebody else's disappointment can be transformational. You can say no, they don't like it, and you survive. You express your opinion, they disagree, and you survive. You set a boundary, they're annoyed, and you survive. You choose yourself, someone leaves, and you survive. Because every time you do this, you teach yourself, I can handle this. And that is how your relationship with yourself begins to change. And here's another question I love. What if they don't like you? Really? Like what if they really don't? What if someone thinks you're too loud? And I can relate to that. I've had many people say I'm too loud. Or too quiet, too opinionated, too emotional, too ambitious, too boring, or just too much. What if they just don't like you? Can you still like you? Because again, that's the work. Not getting everybody else to approve of you, but becoming the person who doesn't abandon herself when somebody else does. And I think that's one of the biggest lessons I've learned through my experiences. I spent a lot of time worrying about whether other people were happy with me. I spent a lot of time trying to be enough. And eventually I realized that I had to become enough for myself. And I don't mean this in an arrogant way, not definitely not in a I don't care what anyone thinks way, but in a grounded way. I can care what you think of me, but your opinion doesn't determine my worth. That's a very different place to live from. And it's absolutely taken me work and I've been healing for the last four and a half years, and I can honestly say I now trust my own opinion of myself, and other people's opinions of me doesn't determine my worth.
So if you're listening to this and you recognize yourself, I want you to start noticing something. Notice when you're changing yourself to avoid rejection. Notice when you're saying yes when you mean no. Notice when you're overexplaining or apologizing unnecessarily. Notice when you're desperately looking for reassurance. That's a big one. I never trusted my own opinion. I wanted other people to reassure me. It's it's um it's confirmation bias. Notice when someone else's mood becomes your responsibility. And then pause, take a breath, and ask yourself, what would I do right now if I wasn't afraid of being rejected? Not necessarily what would I do if I didn't care, but what would I do if I trusted myself enough to handle the outcome? That question can change things because maybe you would say no. Maybe you would speak up. Maybe you'd leave. Maybe you'd apply for the job. Maybe you'd start the business. Maybe you'd tell someone how you really feel. Maybe you'd stop drinking. Maybe you'd finally admit that you're unhappy. And just maybe you'd stop trying to be the person everyone else wants you to be. And then you'd start becoming the woman you actually are. I don't think we'll ever completely eliminate our fear of rejection, and I'm still triggered, but I do now have enough healing behind me that I can work through that in the moment. I mean, we're human. Connection matters to us. Being loved matters and accepted. But we can change our relationship with rejection. We can learn that rejection is painful without making it proof that we're broken. We can learn that someone else's inability to love us doesn't mean we're unlovable. We can learn that someone's decision not to choose us doesn't mean we shouldn't choose ourselves. And we can learn that disappointing someone else is sometimes the price of being honest with ourselves. For me, so much of my healing has been about learning to trust myself, to listen to myself, to recognize what I need, to set boundaries, and that's really hard when we start. It takes a lot of practice. To stop abandoning myself just because someone else might be unhappy with me. And I think that's the real opposite of rejection. It's not getting everyone to choose you, it's choosing yourself.
So I started with a question, and now I'll leave you with a question. Where in your life are you abandoning yourself because you're afraid someone might reject you? And perhaps even more importantly, what would change if you knew that whatever happened, you would still have yourself? Because you can lose someone's approval, you can lose a relationship, someone's affection, but you do not have to lose yourself. And maybe that's where the real healing begins. Okay, guys, well, I'm gonna leave you there. I hope that's given you something to think about. I just
wanted to tell you about a course I'm running at the moment. It's a 12-week program, 30 modules. I walk beside you the whole way. There's one Zoom call a week with the group. I'm offering a bonus one-to-one call in that 12 weeks as well. If you're interested, please go to my website, meeganweb.com.au. The first thing you'll see is book a discovery call with me. Click on it and book a half-hour call. We'll have a chat. We'll see if we're the right fit for each other. And if not, I will point you in the right direction. But I'd love to talk to you. I'd love to hear from you. Any feedback, please reach out and please rate and review this podcast. It would mean so much to me and it would help my message get out there even more. Thank you for listening.
