Weaving Tales of Resilience: Rebecca's Journey Through Health, Friendship, and LGBT Fantasy Fiction | Season 3 Episode 322

As I sat across from Rebecca, her story unfolded like a mosaic of triumph and vulnerability—tales of her health battles, the power of friendship in the face of adversity, and her latest venture into LGBT fantasy fiction that's destined for the silver screen. Our conversation flowed from laughter to tears, weaving through the complexities of life's challenges and the beauty of human connection. Join us for an intimate episode where we lift the veil on personal struggles, the cathartic journey of writing, and the resilience found in creativity.

Rebecca didn't just share an update on her ambitious film project; she brought us along on a vivid stroll through a gay club scene, the quest for genuine representation, and reminded us that distance doesn't dampen the bonds we forge. We riff on the quirks of author signings—those unexpected short stories that leave the audience wanting more—and the emotional rollercoaster of penning books amidst grief. The episode is a tapestry of poignant tales, including my own dance with cancer, and the ways such experiences reshape our art, relationships, and sense of self.

This episode isn't just about recounting our hardships; it's an ode to the growth that stems from them. From the surprising artistic evolution following a concussion to the mental health realizations that bubble up during healing, we bare our souls. We address the sting of online negativity and the importance of authenticity, all while championing Rebecca's upcoming film—a beacon of representation we're thrilled to support. Tune in for stories that celebrate the indomitable spirit, and the connections that sustain us through life's most turbulent waters.

Rebecca's ambitious journey doesn't just end with storytelling—she's bringing the vibrant world of the "Acceptance" LGBTQ+ fantasy series to the big screen. Planned as a five-film franchise, these films aim to explore the depths of fighting oppression and the complex interplay between societal roles and personal identity. However, to bring this vision to life, funding is crucial. The budget will cover essential costs like travel expenses for on-location filming and the transportation of actors and actresses to picturesque filming locations in Philadelphia and Seattle.

We are reaching out to our community across the UK, US, and Bulgaria to support this groundbreaking project. Every contribution helps in making this dream a reality and enhances the authenticity and reach of our narrative. Plus, contributors might get a special treat—a cameo appearance by the beloved character Micah Bravery!

To support Rebecca and be a part of this exciting venture, please consider making a donation at: https://ko-fi.com/secretsofthewarrior#checkoutModal. Your support not only aids in the production of a meaningful film series but also champions the cause of representation and creativity. Join us in this cinematic journey and help us tell stories that matter.

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Transcript

Speaker 1: 0:02

you don't have to be positive all the time. It's perfectly okay to feel sad, angry, annoyed, frustrated, scared and anxious. Having feelings doesn't make you a negative person. It doesn't even make you weak. It makes you human and we are here to talk through it all. We welcome you to these fucking feelings podcast, a safe space for all who needs it. Grab a drink and take a seat.

Speaker 2: 0:26

The session begins now what is up, beautiful people, welcome to an episode of these fucking feelings podcast. I am your host, micah. We got producer crystal over here, hi and our sister from another mother podcast, mother maybe rebecca height, the great arthur herself, and um a movie yeah and a movie, five movies yeah so we were a little bit in agreement. When we were talking, I was apologizing to Rebecca because I finally did something I never thought I would do, and that was I was a bad friend.

Speaker 3: 1:13

Right.

Speaker 4: 1:14

You're not a bad friend If life happens.

Speaker 2: 1:18

I had my reasons Right, but so don't be over there thinking every reason is a good reason to be a bad friend. But I was diagnosed with cancer. We all know that. But I'm I'm moving beyond that struggle now, so I was telling rebecca that I can be a good friend again maybe that's why you're not in the movie.

Speaker 4: 1:36

And then look, oh dang man way to just like cut his throat like that saying it and he was.

Speaker 3: 1:43

I said you said you wanted to be the cashier and he said there's, it's not a cash.

Speaker 2: 1:48

I was like it's a fantasy I was like you're a fan I'm gonna be in the cashier she did kind of play me though, but I was like would there be a cashier in this?

Speaker 4: 1:57

book. No right, I mean there's a, there's gonna be a barista somewhere, but I mean hey, I'm all.

Speaker 2: 2:04

I still want to apply for that role well.

Speaker 4: 2:07

So like there's gonna be um, so you know it's lgbt fantasy fiction and there's gonna be five films total. So we're working on film one and um there's gonna be seen in a in a gay club, and whether or not the club is actually gay when I choose it I don't know, but I would prefer it to be an actual gay club and I like really want to make you the bartender okay I'm here for it.

Speaker 2: 2:33

Yeah, I was now mixing drinks, so maybe I could do a trick or something yeah, that'd be cool.

Speaker 4: 2:39

Uh, so obviously we're. We're looking for um product placement for certain brands. We're reaching out to alcohol brands to market because it's a five film commitment for marketing for them, but otherwise it's going to be like water and tea.

Speaker 2: 2:55

And as a bush or what's my favorite one, crown Royal, crown Royal, here is I'm going to tag you in this episode Washington Apple is my favorite drink, right, the only drink I drink. So, you know, crown royal, let's we gotta support rebecca, yes, and if you don't do it, then we're just gonna go to no matter. I was gonna say it's a rock, but isn't that owned by diddy?

Speaker 4: 3:18

I don't know that's. I'm like a vodka girl more and I like 1800. So like tequila, so like there's somewhat like yeah, I don't know a lot of them. Anything brown I like don't handle well, but this isn't for me. This is for a movie and I'm not drinking it, so it's fine.

Speaker 2: 3:40

And actually I really don't drink that much either, but I guess before. So Rebecca, like I said, is family to us. That's why we just floated in a conversation and I was just thinking so we actually haven't talked about the departure of our Rebecca Right, and I hate to bring it up because they always talk about. I'm like I told somebody asked us where's Rebecca and I said she moved on, she moved on, she moved on, and they thought that I was saying that she died and I'm like no, oh gosh, rebecca and her husband actually found a really great well, he got a really great opportunity in Florida and, of course, they were married. So we couldn't ask her to choose her husband over us.

Speaker 2: 4:20

Well, we did, but we did, we did ask. So Well, we did, but we did, we did ask. So that's why she is no longer part of the show, but she's still part of our family and we have nothing. But you know, love, yeah, love, support, greatness and all that kind of stuff. So I guess it's our first time talking about it, but I was thinking that the last time you was here that it was Rebecca. But no it was Crystal. It was Crystal yeah, rebecca was out that time as well.

Speaker 3: 4:47

Yeah, because I picked on her.

Speaker 2: 4:48

Yeah, oh yeah, she picked on it. She was like, oh, you would have loved that interview we're all family here, definitely. So I didn't even have to bring up Rebecca. So, never mind, forget all that stuff. I said, right. So now I know you're filming in Seattle, right? Are you guys started filming already?

Speaker 4: 5:11

No, we haven't filmed yet. So it's going to be filmed two or three scenes in Philadelphia. I'm going to be working with a local bar on Roosevelt Street to be filming and my father-in-law is Big Daddy Ray on TikTok and he has a very large skate like roller skating following, so I decided to mesh that together. He's going to be in one of the scenes like as a quote unquote retirement party and I'm going to bring some of his skating people on there with their skate shirts and stuff. So it's going to be like a mesh of two worlds.

Speaker 4: 5:50

If you will and obviously I can do only do that in Philadelphia, because like I can't, I can't travel, like I can't have like 10 people travel to Seattle and be like one scene, you know. So then Seattle and then actually we changed the majority of the filming to bulgaria because now we're in an official uh partnership with hexagon productions over in bulgaria and, um, it's mutually beneficial. They're just absolutely fantastic and they're going to help me edit the movie and one of the owners, uh, radiston. He is going to be my writer, so my writer in the book is officially casted with radiston wow, that's amazing and congratulations.

Speaker 2: 6:34

However, I'm not going to bulgaria just because it sounds scary it's beautiful, it's not.

Speaker 4: 6:42

It sounds scary, but I promise it's not like they have um their their capital. Sofia is very old time building, so it looks like I could go to sofia yeah, sofia, to be clear, sofia, bulgaria, is where I'll be, but I'll probably like travel around a little bit in the countryside so you guys are not doing anything in Seattle anymore.

Speaker 4: 7:04

No, we are. I'm not 100% sure which ones exactly we're going to do, because some of them can be changed over to Bulgaria, but we are still going to be in Seattle because of the waterfront there's some waterfront scenes and stuff like that and we're waiting on startup funds. So anyone who watches this that wants to be involved, and a thank you on the film. In the film, after the scenes, right before the bonus scenes, please check out my spot fund and donate money. We need $500,000 to get it off the ground and donate money. We need $500,000 to get it off the ground. I have almost all of my team in place. We just need the funds so we can secure the main talent and get going. Wow, and we're going to make sure we post that everywhere and keep posting it and repost it.

Speaker 2: 8:02

Yes, yeah, and to make sure this happens. It's pretty amazing. It's funny. I met you originally maybe two years ago.

Speaker 3: 8:10

No longer than that.

Speaker 2: 8:11

Huh.

Speaker 3: 8:12

Longer than that you think longer than two years. Yeah, because I've been.

Speaker 2: 8:15

So what, three years ago I don't know when I first came up with the idea of the Suckin' Feelings podcast. It didn't last very long. I I did eight episodes before once again, life kind of like crumbled. But you were one of those eight episodes and um, so I'm telling you this so you guys could go back and watch it, because the rebecca you see there and the rebecca you see here are two different rebecca's and it's great.

Speaker 2: 8:41

And then you watch the one in the middle, then it's like you can actually see that what we say on these shows and what we talk about can actually happen. You know, like you can change your mindset, change the way you think, change the way you look at life, start living in positivity and the present. I think that's a big thing. You know, we always think about the past or the future and we never take time to focus on the present. I think that's a big thing. You know, we always think about the past or the future and we never take time to focus on the present. Right so, and focus on the present, and then maybe you too could have five movies coming out that I'm gonna play the bartender there's no bugs in them oh yeah, that's another thing.

Speaker 2: 9:24

Wait bugs. There's gonna be bugs in bulgaria. That's another thing.

Speaker 4: 9:26

No, it's okay, believe me when I say it's gonna work out, it's gonna be okay. I also have a meeting with sweden coming up to stockholm, sweden. I know I mean it all sounds really fancy when I say it out loud like that, uh, but I promise it's like just a bunch of conversations with people like, like the committee, the film commission of Stockholm, is important because it's connection to the all Northern Stockholm or Sweden. I mean, right, but he's really cool and he's just a person and like I, I no one told me to do it, I just found I was in I'm interested in in Sweden in the future for the future filming, uh to match along with locations in the books and, um, I was just like, hey, I have a ton of questions. He's like cool, let's do a meeting.

Speaker 2: 10:16

I was like great, and that was it like okay, but it's a lot to be excited about because me and other people got right. So don't downplay it. Dreams, girl. So we just talked about how you was healing and then you proved me wrong. Well, I, noticed.

Speaker 4: 10:38

I know because I'm doing a lot of author signings and I have the LA event, the LA Times event, coming up. I don't know if you knew that, but surprise know that.

Speaker 2: 10:47

What is it though?

Speaker 4: 10:48

uh, april 19th. Well, I'm gonna fly out the 19th and then it's the 20th and 21st of april see I'm gonna pop up on one of your events.

Speaker 3: 10:57

Trust it's gonna happen yeah, months ahead of time. So busy'm, so busy.

Speaker 2: 11:04

I am really busy. Shut up, okay, I'm healing right. Crystal won't fly.

Speaker 3: 11:09

No, I won't. That's cool. I won't go to plane Now. I won't even go over a bridge.

Speaker 2: 11:14

Girl. We about to go do a movie in Bulgaria. But no, really, I am going to pop up at one of your events. I've been thinking about it for a long time, really. Uh, I am gonna pop up. One of your events I've been thinking about it for a long time is and you know, actually you're not that far from me, I think like four hours, and uh, and I I'll be seeing when you do book signings.

Speaker 2: 11:30

I'm like, oh, I'm gonna go show up on her, and then it's like something happens yeah lazy and you know, going through chemo and cancer and uh well, I, I have um uh x and someone.

Speaker 4: 11:43

I have another one that's nearby, at the Exton Library in May 19th. It's been really in my mind to not only come up to visit you but also do an author signing in the Albany Barnes Noble closer to you. It's just timing and you have to get a hold of them and it's like travel.

Speaker 3: 12:03

Barnes, noble and Colony Center.

Speaker 4: 12:07

Yeah, there's only one.

Speaker 2: 12:09

I googled it. It's so sad that, like bookstores are like I don't know, they're just they're leaving. You know, I guess it's the last time we'll talk. I'm an author now yep I took. Well, first of all, rebecca, I will go ahead and give you your props, right, right, because I sat down and I wrote this book and I was like it's going to be a thousand pages, like, oh my God, like I get it printed and it's 62 pages. I was like baby. I wrote a pamphlet.

Speaker 3: 12:35

Okay, yeah, I bought it.

Speaker 4: 12:39

I bought your book.

Speaker 3: 12:40

Aw, I know.

Speaker 2: 12:43

But it was just crazy that number one I didn't think that I would be able to write and then number two had nothing Like I'd never really thought about writing. But now I'm working on my second book and that's kind of cool and it's going to be more than 62 pages.

Speaker 4: 12:56

Yeah, that's sort of why my book one was shorter it's 214.

Speaker 2: 13:02

And everyone says I thought it'd be longer and we're like no book two is longer, it's fine there's a second one but I'm telling you, I knew it was a thousand pages, I felt like I wrote a thousand pages, like you couldn't tell me then that you know how you get the little sample joints and you're like, yeah, where is the rest of it?

Speaker 2: 13:26

literally, yeah, literally right like yeah so, uh, but let's uh talk a little bit about your books, um, or because I know you had, your audio book came out right yes, laura harwitz is the one yes, it's the last time we talked, so I think your audio book came out yeah do you have a new book out too?

Speaker 4: 13:47

uh, yeah, so in november I released my third book, reborn, um, so I've been recovering from a concussion and, uh, so I've been utilizing these things to help me like mend my brain on like a timeline that makes sense. But so book three was through my father's death and like my deep, severe concussion. So it's it's a little bit written. Out of the three, I think it's the best one, just because of the writing style and what came out of me at that time and I like I've had overwhelming feedback on that particular book because it's it's a bit more spiritual and, yeah, like I talk about art and sunsets and relating to the ocean and emotions and like you would love it. This is right up your alley.

Speaker 2: 14:51

So I realized that when I'm on chemo, I'm emotional in reverse Right, because I'm not a sobby cry type person. You probably would think I am, but I'm really not right. But I cried everything now. So I'm gonna have to wait till I'm outside of my crying phase. Yes, like we watch tv, so be my mom, that's like our tradition. Like, when I leave here, I'm gonna go home, we're gonna make sure we got dinner and we're gonna watch tv together and I'm gonna cry. And she's gonna look at me like you is dumb, what is he crying?

Speaker 2: 15:24

for like and I mean I'm over here like and she's like, it's a comedy, I'm laughing so hard. Oh my god. It's the way he looked at her, like you could tell, even though he was being funny, it was love you know that's so cute, that's I, so that's sort of connected with um.

Speaker 4: 15:46

You know, like through the years I've been watching your growth and your spiritual growth and your empathy and stuff like that. So I think this event that's happened to you has like opened up a different version of your empathy and I think that, like you, can feel their emotions even if I'm screened, you know what I mean.

Speaker 2: 16:08

I'd be crying before this bad shit about to happen. I'm crying before it happened because you know it's happening, yeah right, my mom was like, can you give it a minute like discuss her? I should be the one crying right you know, she might even call me a punk ass bitch, but it's cool. You know my mom and she loves me. That's cute. I'm just joking. She would never say that, um, or I should never tell her, but she's like mom. Sorry, don't, rebecca? Quick change the subject.

Speaker 4: 16:40

Okay, yeah yeah, yeah, well, what so? The audiobook? The audiobook is out um subject okay, yeah, yeah, yeah, well, so the audiobooks the audiobook is out, um, it's been out since it's been out like three months and it's been really doing very well, so it's audio for the first book yes okay, okay yeah, for book one.

Speaker 4: 16:57

They um, they're a little expensive to make but they're worth it because people that can't medically hold a book can now listen to the book or they'll go back and listen to it, or they're too busy or whatever. Um, I noticed like usually people above the age of like 30s usually like actual hard copies of books or paperbacks old people old people, yeah, like, and I'm included in that 1900s yeah, if it was.

Speaker 4: 17:27

If you was born in the 2000s, you want to eat rita yeah, yeah, you want an audio book, but also because you know they do like yoga or they do walking and they listen to audio books. I mean, they're very good at multitasking the newer generations. I'm actually very impressed. We didn't quite get that sometimes Like we missed that boat, some of us me in particular, and you know. And then there's the parents that have a bunch of children and they're cleaning the house or like they're doing something, they're chasing people around or you know, whatever it is a long commute. The audio books are best for them.

Speaker 2: 18:02

Yeah, definitely, definitely. I'm going to tell you something I realized the other day. I can either do 50,000 things at one time or nothing at all. I cannot work on one task. I can't. It can't just be one thing. It either has to be 50 or nothing.

Speaker 4: 18:19

Yeah.

Speaker 3: 18:21

Yeah, that is definitely. Right, it's like it's ridiculous. He has 100 different tabs open on his computer. I'm like that's a lot of tabs, Just like. Yeah, I know.

Speaker 2: 18:32

And I work at all of them at the same time and it's like everybody gets the same answer at the same time because they're all finished together.

Speaker 3: 18:39

Yeah.

Speaker 2: 18:42

I think that's ADHD though isn't it, it is.

Speaker 4: 18:44

yeah, that's what I have. That's that's what I knew.

Speaker 2: 18:49

I kind of wanted to go back though, Like how did you get this concussion? What was you doing?

Speaker 4: 18:53

Oh yeah yeah, I was on Miranda at a higher speed as standstill traffic. Instead of one more time, right I was, I was rendered my re-ended when it was standstill traffic at a high speed totally different.

Speaker 2: 19:12

That is not what you said in the traffic I heard this. I'm like girl. Why is you standing in traffic?

Speaker 4: 19:31

everybody was good, though, besides the concussion yeah, yeah, as far as I know, everyone's okay, um, but I mean, it's, it's a, it's very um. You don't care about a whole lot when you have a concussion, like you care that you're breathing, you're caring that your eyes can open and you can deal with the light coming in and like gossip around you or the dumb things in life that people usually care about no longer matter, and that's how I live now.

Speaker 2: 20:03

Let's talk about this then, because I'm real ignorant when it comes to concussions.

Speaker 4: 20:06

They're long, it lasts long term, like it can yeah, so so like a concussion can sometime. Depending on the severity of it, it can last like two weeks, um, or it could last two years geez.

Speaker 2: 20:21

Well, now it can be healed though, right yeah, it takes time.

Speaker 4: 20:25

I mean it's, um, like it's essentially so. You know, your, your brain is a muscle and certain parts of it is like bruised, sort of like an apple. If you drop it it looks like an apple, but when you go inside it's all bruised up and doesn't look that great. So that's the same thing as your brain. And, um, what suffered was my motor skills. So, like memory recall, um, I forgot how to speak for a week, like I thought I can only speak french. Like it was great, and I do know some french, so it's not just like me pulling it out.

Speaker 2: 21:02

I probably would have ready to smack you like you would video it, I would video it. Sorry you would have been a tic-tac sensation yeah, yeah, I don't know, it was crazy.

Speaker 4: 21:19

Yeah, so, like my art really came out very well, I couldn't really think or speak. Sleeping, eating and drinking was my main priority and then I could draw. The images that I could draw were fantastic. They were easier than when I didn't have my concussion, but I couldn't hold conversations. Wow.

Speaker 4: 21:41

So I'm going to say that your mental health probably had to go through some little loops yeah, one of the issues I ran into is I wasn't aware of danger around myself, so if someone was bad people, I couldn't recognize that. So I loved and trust everybody which is like me, but like a thousand times like more. So when I was in the throes of my concussion I was convinced that everyone had my best. Like they had to care for me, they had to make sure I didn't ignore a car coming down the road and I'd be hit by a car. I mean, that's a real thing. So like they had to be that thing for me and then I didn't. I wasn't aware that people did not like have my back to make sure I was okay, so that I had to learn that.

Speaker 2: 22:36

I feel like I might be in that state right now. I just I love everybody yeah like. You don't even have to rob me. Just tell me you was thinking about robbing me. You could have it all you know, literally process and I give you a hug if you need it yeah, I'll love you after yes, I was like legit. Uh, it's cool. Whatever you need, we got you.

Speaker 2: 22:57

You know what I'm saying yeah, but um you know what I always say, that and I'm joking I have been robbed over, but I have been robbed at gunpoint, so I can't relate. I know you have to. So I say I and I'm joking, I have been robbed though. Rebecca, I have been robbed at gunpoint, so I can't relate. I know you have too. So I say it jokingly, but I hope I didn't trigger anything no, no, no, you're good yeah, for everybody.

Speaker 2: 23:11

It's not funny. I laugh at my pain. Please know, when you're watching this, that I am laughing about me. Okay, like if you need to cry about you, cry about you, but about me I'm gonna laugh.

Speaker 3: 23:24

So, yeah, I cry about you, but about me I'm gonna laugh. This is so you're so. Yeah, let's talk about I just said that the other day that you're cute, yeah look, she makes it seem like it's a compliment. I just said that four weeks ago well, I was gonna finish the sentence on what you said afterwards, but then I thought about it and I was like yeah, I was just thinking that four weeks ago, you know.

Speaker 2: 23:47

Oh yeah, rebecca, this is not a very good episode right now no, you're good oh, it's the movie based on anything about what you wrote.

Speaker 4: 23:59

It's um so the plot points are the same, but the journey to get to the plot points are the same, but the journey to get to the plot points are different.

Speaker 3: 24:07

You were thinking about this the last time you were on, though right, For some reason, I remember you saying you were thinking about doing a movie.

Speaker 4: 24:16

Yeah.

Speaker 3: 24:17

Yeah.

Speaker 4: 24:18

And then I was like I'm doing a movie that's what I'm saying.

Speaker 2: 24:24

That's dope. If you go back and you guys should watch all three episodes, yeah, we'll make it easy. I'll put all the links in the episode description. Um, just to see your journey and your growth. You know, it's like it's an inspiration because it's like we're sitting here laughing and we've been 24 minutes in and we really haven't talked about mental health, right, but we can do that because we have talked about mental health, right, but we can do that because we have talked about mental health and we're healing. You know what I'm saying. So now we can take the time. We have the time to have this little chit-chat. Yes, because we're working, you know, like we said, hey, the first episode was three years ago. See Rebecca Height then and see her now. You know, I see your wings girl.

Speaker 4: 25:02

Thanks.

Speaker 2: 25:04

Yeah, and it's. But it's crazy, though, that, even though, like, you're doing all these amazing things, it's like you're still struggling with something else and it's like now we're going into the mental health part. Doesn't that just get tired sometime?

Speaker 4: 25:17

I mean not really. To me it's. It's not necessarily about struggling or I have to continuously work on different versions of the same thing or something else. It's because we're changing all the time as people. So what we need change is with it, and I find it humbling to know that. But if at any point in time I say I am 100 percent good, I'm already not good, Like we're not. You know what I mean.

Speaker 2: 25:50

Yeah.

Speaker 4: 25:51

Yeah.

Speaker 2: 25:52

However, I'm saying like when I found out in December that I had cancer again, I was like I am exhausted.

Speaker 4: 25:58

Oh yeah, that's done.

Speaker 2: 26:00

Like Lord, I don't know what your plan is for me, I don't even know if you dare, but but if you're there, like please show me something. I was kind of like over it. It was like because life had been so good, you know, and it's like cool. I did all my suffering when I was younger. And not say that I didn't have everyday challenges. I work with Crystal, so you know my days be hella crazy, right.

Speaker 3: 26:27

I was gone for two weeks and I heard he was miserable.

Speaker 2: 26:33

Because I was on chemo.

Speaker 3: 26:34

I came back and he's all magically not miserable. What's?

Speaker 2: 26:38

that say it just so happened that you came back when I got off chemo.

Speaker 4: 26:44

Burn, man Burn burn.

Speaker 2: 26:46

Everybody knows I love crystal, I know.

Speaker 3: 26:49

I'm so happy you're back. I was damn was he that bad?

Speaker 2: 26:55

but you know what it is sometimes too was like so many people and maybe this is me not being fair to you right, here's my epiphany so many people lean on me that I lean a lot on crystal, you know, because it's like. So I'm in a situation where it's like everybody around me is going through these crazy hardships that I've been through already and I kind of want them to get over it, but they're not gonna get over it. But I also know that they don't have time for my little issues, you know. So. You know, I did like a really aggressive chemo regimen. Like I was on chemo every day for like 90 days. Um, it's a combination of pills and chemicals. It was weird, but the doctor had a plan. I was tired, I'm like whatever, you know, they could have told me drink four gallons of bleach and call me in the morning and I would be like, okay, at that time I was just like, well, whatever, like just do what you're gonna do, right, frustrated that's understandable.

Speaker 4: 27:54

So I actually have a theory about that that I didn't tell you, but I waited until now to tell you let me hear it okay.

Speaker 4: 28:06

So I remember a post a bit ago when you were having a hard time during one of your chemos and like there's a lot of people struggling around you, um, and you were struggling because they were struggling. So, um, although cancer is the more extreme thing, from what I know, when you master a certain area in your healing, you're given, you're like smacked in the face by this difficult thing, whatever that may be and unfortunately for you is cancer, because that's really jacked up. But I guess that's what the universe decided.

Speaker 2: 28:45

I can't wait to meet this universe.

Speaker 4: 28:51

So, like you going through it is making you face the other things that you're still working on or to revisit, or something I mean again, it's a bit more extreme, but I believe that sometimes, when you're at a certain level of mental health and healing, you're put next to or near people that are really struggling and haven't been quite where you are with the understanding for you to help them, understand or guide them. So, for example, when my father was alive, one of the last church services that he was in I met that was a really bad scratch.

Speaker 2: 29:29

I'm sorry you did that scratch.

Speaker 4: 29:31

Was that too much? You want a second.

Speaker 2: 29:33

I don't know. I was like gee, I don't even know what you did. It was cute, it looked good. Okay, sorry you dad, I'm so sorry it was such a bad time.

Speaker 3: 29:42

I'm going to scratch like that all the time.

Speaker 2: 29:47

I know I'm like she just did this little thing and it was just like, like I know you said you had a concussion. Are you bringing shit to your memory Like what did you do?

Speaker 4: 29:53

My third eye. Yeah, no my forehead itched.

Speaker 4: 29:58

I know I'm sorry, which is also a third eye. So, whatever, like it's working for you, man, it's working activated for you. Um, all right. So when my father one of the last services my dad did, uh, there was an elderly woman who I've I've known through the years and she was really struggling and, um, it's not like I personally knew her very well, like I knew of her family growing up, but I didn't remember her name or anything, and she just like opened up and my heart hurt for her and I gave her the, the advice that I have lived by and I give to other people, and it changed her entire world. So, like, I think you and I are here, um, at this level, to help people navigate, like we feel their pain, but we're also there to help, like ease it.

Speaker 2: 30:51

But can I take a vacation?

Speaker 4: 30:53

Yeah, you are right now.

Speaker 3: 30:57

Saturdays and Sundays are vacation day.

Speaker 2: 31:01

You know, it's really, really funny, cause it's like, uh, I was having a conversation with someone last week and they were asking me like if you could have anything in the world, what would it be? And I was like the ability to take a year off.

Speaker 4: 31:15

I just one year.

Speaker 2: 31:17

I promise after that year I'll take my ass back to work and I'll be happy about it. You hear me, I will walk up and sing it. But if I can have a year off, I'm like I just need rest, like you get so bored I probably bored as hell right being there building legos and shit weekly.

Speaker 3: 31:35

A month later you'll be like all right, I have to go back no, no, I think I.

Speaker 2: 31:39

I think I could do the year.

Speaker 4: 31:40

I think I could do the year I don't think you can, no, but like I, really the ADHD would kick in way too fast. Honestly, I think you would get like a couple weeks in.

Speaker 3: 31:50

He's supposed to have not worked for a whole week and he was on a computer working.

Speaker 2: 32:01

And that's not commitment, says the person who called me every day to talk about work this is a different time.

Speaker 3: 32:10

This is a different time so it was.

Speaker 2: 32:15

So my boss came and he's like you know what? I was in the middle of a nervous breakdown and I was like fuck this job, I'm out, but I have a really great boss, he's amazing. Shout out, james. And I texted him and I was like I think you need to find someone more equipped to do this. It was just at that moment. It was just I just think you need to. And so he calls me right away. And you know what People always do the opposite of what you say, and I think maybe you want them to, because I was like no, I don't want to talk about it now, you know what I'm saying.

Speaker 2: 32:51

But he calls me right away and I was like this motherfucker and I took the time to let it ring right and I'm like I ain't answering this bitch because I told you I didn't want to talk right now but he was the boss. So we answered the phone. The boss calls um and he said you know what, like I kind of should have done this. We know you're going through a lot, like we just need you to take some time off, take next week off. You know, no work, nothing. Like don't open a computer, like leave your computer here, like don't talk about work at all. And then my mom has open heart surgery.

Speaker 3: 33:20

It's like so it wasn't really like a vacation.

Speaker 2: 33:25

It was a week off because it was like a week in the hospital, you know, looking at these people when they came. You know what I realized too about hospitals and y'all suck for this, and I'm speaking of the ones I went through lately like don't be a good nurse when the family there and then when the family leave, you're not a good nurse, no more oh my gosh.

Speaker 2: 33:45

So my mom had a couple of those experiences, like, and I was on the phone with her and it's like I hear this shit and I'm like uh-uh, put the headphone on the phone because this woman is loved and you're not gonna talk to a woman who is loved like this. So like, let's get this together. Like they oh, they were so tired of me. They was like can we let her go today? Like, could we let her go because her son I called him every night, every two hours. I was checking in on my mama and she said I want to hear she's still alive that's valid though but uh, I don't know.

Speaker 2: 34:18

I just feel like if you have a job that you hate, go find another job, right?

Speaker 4: 34:24

that's our mixed message for today go do what your heart sings about and if you don't know how to do it? Start with researching right.

Speaker 2: 34:34

Right, because some people just are miserable and I get and I think that's what I'm trying to escape a miserable world. You know, it's like I feel like we don't exist to be miserable. We don't. I can't believe in a creator that created creation to suffer. I just, you know, I feel like if there is a paradise after this lifetime, I should have it now.

Speaker 2: 34:56

And then, you know, now I'm not saying I won't have bad days, but I should have more good days than I do bad days yep and I should know what peace is, and I should know what love is, and, if nothing else from myself, you know, I should know what it's like to completely love who I am and accept myself and like. These are all the reasons for healing. You know, these are the reasons to do what you do, so that you can start chasing your dreams, like rebecca is teaching us. You know she's about to go to bulgaria. Yeah, these are the reasons to do what you do, so that you can start chasing your dreams, like Rebecca is teaching us.

Speaker 4: 35:27

You know she's about to go to Bulgaria, yeah.

Speaker 3: 35:30

I know Look where that is. I'm going to have to look where that is.

Speaker 2: 35:35

And it's funny too, because I feel like it's the most random place and I don't mean that disrespectfully Bulgaria. So when I'm there visiting Rebecca, you treat me nice. Okay, I'm a good guy, um, but every time I say it and I'm saying it now to be funny I always think of like Vikings type of people.

Speaker 4: 35:54

I mean they're, they're, so I'm Vikings sort of reached everywhere. So Bulgaria is near Hungary. It's next to Hungary, right, okay, it Okay.

Speaker 2: 36:04

I was just like what else? It's Hungary which is like near it's east of Italy. Okay, Italy, you got that right girl, I got that one. I've heard of Hungary. Yeah, I've heard of it. No, because there's a lot of things I feel like I'm ignorant to too.

Speaker 3: 36:32

Like I couldn't give you all capitals of all 50 states. No, don't give me a street where I was born. You have to give me a place like do you know where food security says yes. You can't say do you know where fairy street is?

Speaker 2: 36:42

no, I go to the railroad track. When you see the that has a little swing on it. That's the kind of directions you need to give her.

Speaker 4: 36:51

That's valid, though that's because we didn't have GPS growing up. We had map tests.

Speaker 2: 36:57

Right and landmarks and don't let you be traveling from state to state. They'd be like eight pages long. You'd be like, oh man'd be like oh man, I know I was just telling somebody. Um, I was thinking the other day about, uh, like I didn't text people in high school, you had to pay per text. Okay, and let my mama see your text on my phone bill I had a pager.

Speaker 3: 37:19

How did you get a cell phone right I?

Speaker 2: 37:21

actually had a cell phone pretty young and that's because I used to run the streets. Right now I'm just. I worked at a young age. I started working once I was legally able to, when I wanted a cell phone. So my parents' philosophy if you can pay for it.

Speaker 3: 37:34

You can have it. I didn't think cell phones were.

Speaker 2: 37:39

Why are you trying to make me older?

Speaker 3: 37:43

Because if I didn't have a cell phone when I was that age, I don't know how you would have a cell phone.

Speaker 2: 37:50

I mean, he's 36 right, thank you, bitch, cover that shit up I, I had a.

Speaker 4: 37:57

Uh, I had a. I mean I didn't have a cell phone when I was 16. I have the same number I did when I had, when I was 16.

Speaker 2: 38:04

How old are you?

Speaker 4: 38:05

36.

Speaker 2: 38:07

Right, oh, so she's 36. Okay, psychic, you need to put her ass in the movie. Oh my.

Speaker 3: 38:11

God, he did something so funny today because he just says, like egg with the ball and the potato, we have a worker and she comes over and something had happened and she did something wrong. And she comes over and something had happened, she did something wrong. And she comes over and she's like Micah, do you know why this keeps happening? He's like let me pull out my ball. And he's like acts like he was really looking into a crystal ball, but it was a potato, it's a bean.

Speaker 2: 38:41

It looks like a potato, so my coworker got me a. It's like a crochet bean and it says you're my favorite human being oh, that's cute, it's a cute pun yeah, it is a really cute play. Uh, rebecca, we sorry, okay. Oh, I was trying to tell you. Did I tell you about amber riley?

Speaker 4: 39:00

oh yeah, so I don't know what, uh, what, what's up with amber right?

Speaker 2: 39:05

the reason why I'm so hyped right Like this got me high as hell. I've been smoking like 18 blunts but really it's all Amber Riley right. So I get trolled a lot doing this mental health podcast. I don't know why. People either just hate me or hate mental health, but I get a lot of negative comments, a lot of negative messages, and that's why I barely check Messenger and stuff because most of the time it's like negative. And something A friend of mine called me a few days ago and I was talking about April 1st was our one year anniversary of these fucking feelings being back Us being a top rated podcast. You know it was. It was a lot of things to celebrate and that was my post about. You know it was like thanks for taking this journey with us. You know, and you know it's the, the guests we have, the people who taught the lessons, people like you who come on and share your story and impact people. You.

Speaker 4: 40:08

Yet oh God, you know karma's coming for his throat.

Speaker 2: 40:14

I was like so a friend I didn't even see it A friend of mine called me and it was like hey, you need to take this post down or you need to report it. You know, do something, but like you need to take this post down or you need to report it. You know, do something, but like you need to take it off. And I was like or not to post a comment. So I went on TikTok, found a comment, like I did, reported this stuff, but it stung Like for some reason it really really stung this time and I trust I don't got some horrible things.

Speaker 2: 40:39

People don't put my heads in places. You wouldn't believe. I'm like, how are you going to fit my big head in that place? You know, people have sent me some threats. Now, right, like I probably need secret service. I don't know why, rebecca, I really don't understand it.

Speaker 2: 40:53

I spent all my days deleting messages, deleting comments, because the stuff that people say contradicts our message to people and I never want someone to read it and then become negative, you know, because I feel like it's triggering, you know, but for some reason, like I said, I just get a lot of hate. Um, so my friend did this, so he saw it. I got, I saw it and we just end up talking about it and I said you know, this is the reason why sometimes I just want to stop doing podcasting, like sometimes I just don't even want to do it because, like I'm good, I I'm healed you know what I'm saying or I'm healing, like I just want everybody else to feel the same way. But maybe I just need to be selfish and just be healing and be a bit blissful and being good. If there's one thing me and my friend Sebastian have in common, and that is Amber Riley, I love Amber Riley. We were Glee fans. Love Mercedes Jones on Glee.

Speaker 2: 42:10

No-transcript that's so cute like, like you know, I I was gonna leave this message, but I had to check out what your work was to make sure it was legit, because, I don't want to. You know, I can't be sincere if it's some trash, but it's not trash and I'm like that's Amber Riley saying that, okay, like award winning, like she was the harp.

Speaker 2: 42:42

You know, harp, the harp left me a message you know, so, and I got it like just before we came on, yeah, and that's why this is probably the worst podcast you ever been on. I feel like we haven't talked about anything good, we did right, yeah, we're he. Her book concussion the concussion about good girls do no, but the struggle she went through.

Speaker 3: 43:06

I know I'm joking, yeah the best friend and you can't live without me, like we talking about all yeah, I mean to circle back about what the comments and everything.

Speaker 4: 43:21

It's when you're healing and you are giving out that vibe and I love your posts, like your energy. You know that, like I tell you all the time and that's why I absolutely adore you so the people that are unhealed are triggered by you and then. So what they try to do is re drag you down to the low energy which are the comments. So you being as unfazed as humanly possible with that is exactly the right thing. You know, um, I'm doing a lot like, obviously so, like the movie, the five movies, the. I'm working, I'm gonna do book number four at some point and that's going to be movie five, eventually comic book.

Speaker 4: 44:05

But I noticed, as I do and piece together the movie, I don't from my personal circle, I don't have a lot of support from my people, and it's because they're the wrong people.

Speaker 4: 44:20

You have to get rid of them.

Speaker 4: 44:21

You have to get rid of them, get different people, and so I'm gaining a new team and people that are aligning with me now and, um, I mean, my world is changing, but when I started this movie and signed with undisputed films and marco robinson, um, in the uk, uh, I was the only one advocating for myself there was. There was, like, only one other person that I knew out of the whole lot of them that was like yes, do this. And they were all like no. So, like, the more successful you are, the more jealous and envious people are and some mean things come out of their mouths and they try to get you to divert and not be successful. So the only thing I can suggest is, at the end of the day, if you believe 100 that this is the right thing you should be doing, then let the negativity go as much as you can right and I get that, but it was just a bad day and I got you I was, I was entitled, but it was just the, the, I don't know like that's the point.

Speaker 2: 45:29

Like like who he had the balls like legit. Like you came in with these big ass cojones yeah answer hasn't killed you yet. Like really, that's how messed up this world is it's fucked up, you know.

Speaker 3: 45:41

Yeah, it really honestly is this world is fucked up right and it was like oh, it's sad.

Speaker 2: 45:46

Sometimes it is like, you know, and so sometimes it's like do you do I want to give myself to the world? Do I want to give my gift to people? Because what are they gonna do with it? They're gonna turn my words around, are they gonna, you know? But at the end of the day, you're right and you know, I think what we're doing is important. You know, I I don't know that people get much from me, but they get a lot from our guests and to me, you know, it's like every guest we've ever had has touched me, so I can imagine how they touch other people, and that's what I love about this podcast.

Speaker 2: 46:17

You know, we did an interview yesterday and it was an older gentleman and it was really funny for us. We got a message from him today and he said wow, you, you know, talking to you felt like talking to an old friend, right and um, and I was like, damn, that's kind of deep, you know, because we made him comfortable, you know, made him safe, and I think that's what I want to do. It's like no, let people know that they're a safe place for you to feel comfortable, to feel like you're talking to an old friend. You know and, and you know you have to heal, you don't heal. You're gonna stay in that mesh, in that ugliness and the potential of working on five movies like you're gonna get your money, girl. You was gonna get it, you know. So that's the least bit of your worries, you gonna get it.

Speaker 2: 47:10

I wanted to ask you questions. So now. So like cool, I know, you know, you never. You know books have been turned into movies all the time, but you never get to talk to an arthur right? So you said they, they changed, like they changed some things about it. Do you do that writing or is someone else that does that?

Speaker 4: 47:24

yeah, so I did the script writing, um, and I also like, so I'm the director and the script writer and the producer, um, because I don't, I mean, I'm sure someone else could direct it, but it's I've. I've said it before my books are already a movie in my head, so why would I even, I mean, be a waste of energy?

Speaker 2: 47:48

how, how, how were, what were your emotions about changing things or making things different in the book?

Speaker 4: 47:54

I actually didn't have an issue with it because I already wanted to go back and modify book one to be longer and different anyways, so this was just a way for me to do it without actually doing that. Like the book and I I really enjoy the way it came out there's more like villain background, um, there's different scenes with her best friend. They're like sort of the same but sort of different. And, um, I mean movie two. I don't really see a whole lot changing in that, other than maybe some extra characters or something. I um, I went a little deeper and there's a guard who I named scott.

Speaker 4: 48:38

It's a brand new character and in movie one he's like with he's aligned with the bad guys, and then you see him sort of transition, along with the main character, to the good side, and so, like I'm giving as much examples of you have, you have a chance to change your life at any given time. It's just because you made bad decisions doesn't mean it's the end. You can always choose to do good, I mean, and I'm using him as a catalyst for that, but it's it's like two, almost two stories at once. So there's both sides, the good side and then the dude on the bad side going at the good side, right, right, right, and that's pretty dope.

Speaker 2: 49:21

I mean it's cool that you have a mission. You know it's like you have a purpose behind all of this and it's it's to actually teach lessons and not just to. Yeah, you know, I don't know, I can't stand action movies right, like my mom would turn on action movies like deuces. No, I just can't do it. So I don't know to be, you know, so to me it's like I have to watch something that has substance to it. You know, I don't know why, I feel like, not, action movies don't have substance. But you're not gonna find your daughter in barcelona and the guy that got her, like it ain't gonna be that easy, bro. You know I'm saying like, come on now, like if you was a cia agent, they would never been able to kidnap your daughter you know, I'm saying like come on bro you're talking about right now.

Speaker 2: 50:06

Taken it's like the only actual movie I ever watched, and I think because I had to watch it, because I was on like on a bus trip and it was all they was playing, you know, and it was before tablets, you know. So Remember those days, crystal, that's funny Back in the 1900s, 1900s.

Speaker 4: 50:28

Oh my gosh.

Speaker 2: 50:29

Yeah, but you know what. We joked around a lot, though, but I do think that you're a great mental health advocate, and so I do want to take the time and ask is there anything that you want to tell our audience that we didn't give you a chance to say?

Speaker 4: 50:46

And if there's not nothing you want to say, then say something. You're like, here's your tile.

Speaker 4: 50:50

Um yeah, five seconds so the I just want to reiterate because I can't stress this enough I feel like a lot of people are realizing that they can do more in life and, like a lot of conversations I have, a lot of people are evolving like healing wise, mentally wise and spiritually wise, but they keep getting stuck because, again, the people around them are not supporting them. And I just want to reassure everyone that if you have to distance yourself from people that are toxic or that are giving you a hard time Sometimes they're okay and sometimes not it's okay to move away from them. And part of the storyline is for my books is that you are your best friend and as long as you support yourself and what you're and you believe in it enough, nothing will stop you. So, for example, I knew as soon as I met radiston that he was gonna be in my movie, and I didn't know how, I didn't know what was gonna happen, uh, but I knew it and and I kept telling him, I was like you're gonna, you're, you're gonna be in my movie and I mean I didn't really give him a choice. But but he's such a doll face, like he's just so adorable and, um, like with the movie itself, like everyone was like, aren't you afraid it's movie one like I had another friend of a producer at my author signing, be like asking me a ton of questions.

Speaker 4: 52:30

Aren't you afraid it's movie one Like I had another friend of a producer at my author signing, be like asking me a ton of questions. Aren't you afraid you're not going to get the funding? Like, yeah, I am, but I'm going to get the funding. Like it's like a lot is playing on movie one, cause movie one sets the tone for all five movies and I aren't you worried that it's going to be bad? No, aren't you worried that it's gonna be bad? No, I'm not worried it's gonna be bad. It's gonna be freaking awesome because it's gonna be like bulgaria and like the content and the mythology and tree of life and this is freaking amazing. No, I'm not worried about this. So, like no one can change my mind. You know right, it won awards. Book one won awards for a reason Snip, snip.

Speaker 2: 53:12

Awards. No, definitely everything you said. I mean I feel like that. It's like when you start loving yourself correctly, that's kind of the confidence that you get. You start to know your worth and really I think that's what it's all about. You know when you, when you say things aren't going to happen or you're fearful, things not happening is you're not knowing what you're worth. You know. So I'm going to go ahead and win this Powerball and we going to be good For all those listening. Y'all might not see me no more after this show because I won the Powerball, taking my year off.

Speaker 4: 53:50

Taking my year off. You're taking my year off. That's funny.

Speaker 2: 53:53

I'll be in Bulgaria, even though you say you're the director. I'll be like that. Sand is out of place. You know what.

Speaker 3: 54:00

I'm saying I'll be the director, assistant.

Speaker 4: 54:05

I will need one.

Speaker 2: 54:07

She'll be like coffee. No, really Cool. I'm so proud of all the stuff that you're doing. I think everything you're doing is so dope. You've always been an inspiration to me. I feel like you've taught me a lot of lessons, and if you guys want to know what those lessons are, then go back and watch those last two episodes. There's one really, really important lesson that you taught me, but we're not gonna talk about it because we're gonna make you go back, okay. So, uh, I mean, you're actually the highest watched episode that we have, really, yeah, and the second one yeah, yeah, I know what you're talking about you didn't know me, but they didn't know nothing about us.

Speaker 2: 54:49

They're like we get these fucking feelings out. You need to move on. But now people listening, but no, really keep the right people around you. I think a very important message out of all the craziness we talked about today and it's our craziness. So what you saw was three people healing, catching up.

Speaker 2: 55:08

True story Right Catch catching up True story, right, catching up and we should have did it on a phone call, but no, we did it on a podcast, because we want you to see what healing looks like, how you can genuinely support each other. Everybody can win. You can want everybody to win, but it all comes down to first, like you said, let's get that toxic energy out your life. You know, some people just need to be removed, but it also comes down to figuring out how to love you and understand your worth, and I think it's nothing more important than that, and that is why we do this. There are so many methods out there for mental health wellness that you know, if you work out these muscles and you be up in the gym, you need to work out, like the inside muscles as well, right? So if it's not a therapist, it's a coach, it could be a book, it could be writing, it could be getting on my nerves, like Crystal does you know? So she gives me all her trauma and then she'd be like whew.

Speaker 3: 56:13

I feel so much better.

Speaker 2: 56:15

I'm over there like and she's like, I feel great, I'm going to do my job now. I'm going to work and I'm rocking back and forth, you know, so no, don't do that to people, okay. But, rebecca, we adore you. Uh, I apologize if this wasn't what you were expecting. It's just, amber riley made me high.

Speaker 4: 56:36

Okay, it's all good, man, it's all good. I never really expect anything specific when I come and talk to you guys, because I know you'll, it's about being authentic. You know, like you are the, the tone setter of the podcast and I follow you and then we all have adhd and then it's just like it's a party. You know what I mean. Like, authenticity is pristine. It's way better than a organized podcast definitely, definitely.

Speaker 2: 57:04

And you know what I feel bad sometimes because we get requests like people be like, can you send us the 20 questions? And I'm like why I just gotta be 20? No, but my answer is always no. For that reason, yeah, it's like I don't mind having this person on as a guest, because you know now that we're like top rated, we get reached out from like pr people and stuff. You know so. So I'll be talking to people's managers and shit, right, but no really, and they always want to know, like, what are you going to talk about? What are you going to ask? And I'm like we'll see when they get here. Like depends on the energy of their day, what I have for breakfast, how much Crystal got on my nerves.

Speaker 2: 57:48

I'm just playing. Yeah, I really love Crystal. I'm just playing. Yeah, I really love Crystal. I'm picking on Crystal because she did something without me.

Speaker 4: 57:55

Oh, your feelings are hurt.

Speaker 2: 57:57

What are they hurt? You know what I'm saying. She wouldn't have had a grandbaby without me.

Speaker 3: 58:04

I did have a granddaughter. I got you, I got you. She just welcomed her second granddaughter.

Speaker 2: 58:07

Yes, second grandbaby, she was born, I got you she just welcomed her second granddaughter yes, second grandbaby when she was she was born on the 25th. She was born on the 25th, march 25th. Yeah, like legit just knew, and she left me to go to Tennessee to be with this grandbaby and her family. Like I want nothing and I got abandonment issues. Look, here I go triggering people. I'm gonna shut up and end this episode now. It's amber riley's fault, okay, whatever I said is because amber riley, who is so dope, y'all check her out. She made my day today just because you know what she supported me and I think that goes into what you were saying. You know, one thing she did was she did her research and then she was like okay, yep, you could get support and I thought that's kind of dope. Y'all do the same thing. Let's support rebecca. I'm gonna list, start listing your uh, what's the funding site?

Speaker 4: 58:57

um spotfundcom.

Speaker 2: 59:00

there's a specific link directly yeah, the link, I just didn't want to name the wrong place so I'll put her funding information on all of our platforms and we'll keep posting it. And you guys, I mean I'd say we probably waste at least $7 a day on nothing.

Speaker 3: 59:19

Probably more.

Speaker 2: 59:20

Right, well, I'm going to give everybody $7 a day. We waste at least $7 a day. We're not even asking for that $7 a day, we're just asking for it one time with $7. Okay, asking for that seven dollars a day? We just asking for it one time with seven dollars. Okay. Like if everybody could just send seven dollars, we could get to where we want to be. Right, that is the best number. But if you could send more, if you could send seven thousand dollars, we're not stopping you. You know, if you could set seven thousand, seven hundred and seventy seven dollars, let's do this.

Speaker 4: 59:48

But five thousand dollars will get you to be an extra in the film. So there there's tears. So like five thousand is an extra in the film. And then like um five a thousand is your logo on my website. It's like all listed on there, so you guys do get something. It's not just like. I mean, I appreciate the generosity and you support of mental health and fantasy fiction and LGBT, because this movie is going to make such a splash. I can't even tell you.

Speaker 2: 1:00:22

It's going to change the culture and it's necessary because it's different.

Speaker 4: 1:00:25

And it's original.

Speaker 2: 1:00:27

And it's something that hasn't been done before, and more people just need to support it. So you know, there's three things you should have got out of this right Learn to love yourself, figure out your worth. That's one thing. I know I said two things, but it's one. The second thing is watch the people around you. And the third thing is we're going to go ahead, click the link and donate to Rebecca Until next week. Peace, love and blessings. See you then, guys.

Speaker 4: 1:00:53

Bye, bye.