I Sat On My Porch And Started Questioning Everything

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I'm sitting out here on my front porch again. Just me, the breeze, and my thoughts doing what they always do wondering. You ever just sit still but your mind goes everywhere? Like one minute you're enjoying the weather and the next minute you're questioning your entire existence or at least whether you should walk across the street barefoot because that's where I started today. I'm looking at the street light. Could I just walk across it barefoot? I mean technically I can. These are my feet. Ain't nobody paying my foot bills but me. But then I look down and I'm like yeah, absolutely not. My toes said we need an appointment before we go anywhere publicly. And now I'm stuck between freedom and a pedicure. And that's how the thinking starts. Because once that door opens, it doesn't close. Now I'm thinking about the ground. Like yeah, it's not hot, but it's life down there. Dirt, germs, who knows what somebody dropped, spilled or tracked across that street. Suddenly, walking barefoot turns into a full blown risk assessment. Then my eyes shift, and now I'm looking at my grass. And listen, my grass isn't wild, but it's talking to me. It's at that point where it's like you see me, you know what needs to be done, and I'm sitting here thinking, could I cut it myself and immediately no? Because I know me, I know my asthma, I know what triggers it, and cutting that grass, that's not just yard work. That's a hospital visit waiting to happen. And I don't do hospitals unless I absolutely have to. So now I'm sitting here negotiating with life like okay, you can't cut the grass, so call somebody. Handle it differently. And that's a lesson right there. Just because you can do something doesn't mean you should. But my mind doesn't stop. Now I'm looking at my fish tank. And I mean, this is not no little bowl. This is a tank big enough that I'm really sitting here wondering could I fit in there? Like could my whole body actually get in that tank? And then my brain goes even further. Okay, even if I could fit, would the stand hold me? Or would I just end up breaking everything, tank, stand, dignity all in one move? And now I'm laughing because why am I even thinking about this? But that's what happens when you slow down. You start asking random questions, silly questions, deep questions. Like what does it even mean to live a good life? Is it doing everything you can do or is it knowing what's right for you, what's safe for you, what brings you peace? Is it about doing big things or is it about sitting on your porch, feeling the breeze, being grateful you can breathe easy today? And maybe that's the answer. Maybe a good life isn't about proving anything to anybody. Maybe it's not about walking barefoot just because you can or pushing yourself to do things your body already told you not to. Maybe it's about awareness, knowing yourself, respecting your limits, finding joy in small quiet moments like sitting on your porch, watching the world move while you stay still, because in those moments you hear yourself a little clearer. So yeah, I might not walk across the street barefoot, and I'm definitely not getting in that fish tank, but I am out here breathing, thinking, laughing at myself, and honestly, that feels like living. And before I go, let me say this. If you're out there listening and you're rocking with me, I truly appreciate you. Real talk. Make sure you hit that support the show button. Go ahead and subscribe, follow, and share this podcast with everybody. Your family, friends, coworkers, neighbors, shoot, your barber, your boutician, your favorite chef. Tell everybody about it. And if you feel led to, you can always drop a little love in the Cash App. Anything is appreciated, big, small, in between, it all helps keep this going. Because at the end of the day, this right here, this porch talk, these thoughts, these moments, it's all for us. And your support, it means more than you probably realize. So until next time, stay safe, stay thoughtful, and don't overthink yourself out of a good moment. I'll catch you on the next one.