The Platform Between Now And Never

Podcast Story Series

Transcript

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They say if you ever end up on the last train out of Naylor Road station, you might not come back the same. Most people laugh when they hear that. I used to laugh too, until the night I got on anyway. It was one of those late shifts where time moves faster than you do. I was coming off work, tired, just trying to make it home. I had missed my usual connection, so I ended up waiting on the platform at Naylor Road Station, watching the city slow down around me. The station felt different that night. Not unsafe, just quiet in a way that didn't feel normal. The kind of quiet where even your thoughts sound louder than they should. There were only a few of us left on the platform. A man sitting on the bench near the escalator, humming something under his breath like he didn't realize he was doing it. A woman standing too close to the edge of the platform, staring down the tunnel like she already knew what was coming. And me checking my phone over and over again, watching the clock crawl toward midnight. eleven forty six PM One more train. That's all I needed. When the announcement came over the speaker, something fell off immediately. Last train arriving final destination Branch Avenue and Beyond Service Limits. Beyond service limits I remember frowning at that. Metro doesn't talk like that, but nobody else reacted. The train pulled in slow, too smooth. No unusual screech of metal, no rush of air, just a quiet glide like it had been waiting for us instead of the other way around. The doors opened, and something in me hesitated. That little voice we all ignored said don't get on this one. But I did anyway. Inside the train looked normal at first, same seats, same dull lighting, same worn floors. But there were no ads on the walls, no station map above the doors, just blank panels where something should have been. The doors closed behind me and the train moved instantly. No warning, no familiar stop announcements, just silence. Then I noticed the first strange thing. Nobody was talking, not just quiet, completely still, like everyone had agreed not to exist out loud. The humming man from the platform was now sitting two rows behind me. I hadn't seen him bored. The woman from the platform was across the aisle now, even though I didn't see her move either. And that's when she finally looked at me. You shouldn't be here, she said. I let out a small laugh. I just missed my stop. Happens all the time. She shook her head. No, she said. I mean you shouldn't be on this line. What line is this? She looked down the length of the train instead of at me. The last line she said before things get decided. Before I could ask what she meant, the lights flickered once. Then the train slowed. The speaker crackled. Next stop gallery place Chinatown. That should have been normal, but it wasn't because when I looked out the window, there was no gallery place. No city lights, no familiar underground tunnel system. Just darkness that didn't feel like darkness. More like emptiness wearing the shape of a tunnel. The train stopped anyway. The doors opened. Cold air rushed in. And for a second I saw something I shouldn't have seen. My childhood neighborhood, not Metro, not DC Transit, my old street. The corner where I used to stand as a kid. The cracked sidewalk, the same broken fence, and standing on that platform was me. Smaller. Younger. Watching the train like it had been waiting for years. My throat went dry. That's not possible, I whispered. The woman leaned closer. It's not you, she said. It's what you left behind. The younger version of me started walking toward the train. The humming behind me got louder. The man hadn't moved, but somehow he was closer now. The woman grabbed my wrist. Don't let it bored with you, she said. Bored what? But it was already too late. The child stepped onto the train and smiled at me, not like a child, like something that remembered me better than I remembered myself. The doors closed, the train started moving again, and the lights flickered harder this time. When they stabilized, the woman was gone. So was the humming man. It was just me and the child sitting across from me. The speaker came back on. Next stop, Reagan National Airport. I shook my head. No no, that's not even on this line. The child tilted its head. You're the one who got on, it said softly. You're the one trying to leave things behind. I didn't leave anything behind, I said. The child just stared at me, then said That's not what your memory says, and suddenly the windows changed. Not outside views anymore. Inside views, moments, missed calls I didn't return. Conversations I walked away from people I hurt without meaning to places I stopped going back to. Each one flashing like the train was moving through my life instead of the city. The train slowed again, the speaker crackled. Next stop final transfer. The lights went out completely. When they came back on, the child was standing now, right in front of the doors. They always think this is a punishment, it said. What is this? I asked. The child looked at me one last time. It's a choice, it said. The train stopped, the doors opened, but there was no station this time. Just light, bright, quiet, endless. The kind of light that doesn't push you forward. It waits. The child stepped toward it, then paused, like it was waiting on me. For the first time all night I understood something clearly. It wasn't trying to hurt me. It was trying to separate me from everything I kept dragging behind me. I stood up, my voice shook. I didn't abandon you, I said to it. The child didn't move. I just didn't know how to carry everything. Silence. Then the child nodded and stepped off the train into the light. Gone. The door stayed open, but I didn't move. I sat back down and the train closed the doors like it understood. The humming was gone, the silence felt different now. Calmer, human again. The speaker came on one last time. Next stop, Naylor Road Station. And for the first time all night the train felt like it was going home.