My Inner Torch
My Inner Torch offers direct and personal insight with help for those of us in a relationship with someone who is undiagnosed/diagnosed with a Cluster B Personality Disorder. This is a safe place to come for words of inspiration that draw from my personal experiences and is produced to gain understanding and to find direction as we navigate through the often difficult relationships with those we love who suffer with a Cluster B personality disorder that includes BPD and NPD. PLEASE NOTE: This podcast is NOT for those who suffer with these disorders. This podcast is for survivors of these challenging and difficult relationships.
My Inner Torch
Four years along....where I am now?
I initiated my podcast in September 2020 as a platform to document my journey while helping others navigate the complexities of relationship dynamics, especially those involving narcissism. Over the past four years, I’ve shared insights about my long-term marriage. Initially, I believed my wife had borderline personality traits, but I now suspect she may be a covert narcissist. I highlight the challenges of understanding such personalities and emphasize that the critical issue is whether my needs are met in the relationship, regardless of the type of abuse I may experience. Although I feel more enlightened after years of exploration, I still struggle with my wife’s perplexing behavior and hesitate to discuss my feelings with her due to her perceived lack of respect and empathy.
I also reflect on the significance of attention and prioritization in relationships. I’ve felt frustrated over my wife’s decision to plan a trip with our daughter on our upcoming 22nd wedding anniversary, as it seems to undermine the importance of our marriage. This contrast becomes even more apparent when I consider her evident commitment to our daughter’s birthday, further highlighting my feelings of thoughtlessness and abandonment.
Additionally, I delve into the misconceptions about covert narcissists compared to grandiose narcissists. While grandiose types are often ambitious and charismatic, covert narcissists may display traits like chronic emptiness and manipulation through victimhood. Through my experiences, I convey feelings of confusion and self-blame, ultimately leading to a realization about the nature of my relationship. I stress the importance of recognizing these dynamics and encourage others to value themselves and pursue healing.