
My Inner Torch
My Inner Torch offers direct and personal insight with help for those of us in a relationship with someone who is undiagnosed/diagnosed with a Cluster B Personality Disorder. This is a safe place to come for words of inspiration that draw from my personal experiences and is produced to gain understanding and to find direction as we navigate through the often difficult relationships with those we love who suffer with a Cluster B personality disorder that includes BPD and NPD. PLEASE NOTE: This podcast is NOT for those who suffer with these disorders. This podcast is for survivors of these challenging and difficult relationships.
My Inner Torch
The Cluster B 3 Ring Circus
I often find myself feeling like a clown in a chaotic “3 ring circus” because of my interactions with someone who exhibits traits of Cluster B personality disorders, like narcissism and borderline personality disorder. I’ve noticed that these individuals frequently chase after unrealistic happiness and set unattainable expectations, which leads to a constant cycle of disappointment.
Reflecting on Maria Consiglio’s insights, I see that people with these disorders tend to live in a fantasy world and often engage in what’s known as “monkey branching” when they seek new partners. In my relationship, I’ve experienced a growing emotional detachment resembling a roommate situation more than a loving partnership. This leaves me questioning whether genuine love can exist in such dynamics.
I’ve come to realize how futile it is to seek validation from toxic individuals. It’s become clear to me that I need to prioritize my self-worth and practice self-love. Ultimately, I believe I must focus on my healing and build a life centered around my own needs and values, rather than trying to please others.