My Inner Torch
My Inner Torch offers direct and personal insight with help for those of us in a relationship with someone who is undiagnosed/diagnosed with a Cluster B Personality Disorder. This is a safe place to come for words of inspiration that draw from my personal experiences and is produced to gain understanding and to find direction as we navigate through the often difficult relationships with those we love who suffer with a Cluster B personality disorder that includes BPD and NPD. PLEASE NOTE: This podcast is NOT for those who suffer with these disorders. This podcast is for survivors of these challenging and difficult relationships.
My Inner Torch
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In my journey through relationships, I’ve found myself navigating the complexities and emotional turmoil that come with being involved with covert narcissists or individuals exhibiting borderline personality traits. It’s a painful experience that often leaves me confused, full of self-blame, and questioning my worth. I’ve endured extreme psychological abuse, marked by manipulation, control, and unresolved conflicts that have made it difficult to find my footing.
Reflecting on my experience with a wife who clings to past grievances, I can see how it created a chaotic dynamic filled with blame-shifting. This has led to a great deal of emotional pain, a sense of isolation, and the feeling of being trapped. Each time I attempted to step away from the relationship, the abuse intensified, making it even harder to break free.
What stands out to me is the deceptive nature of narcissists. They often project a caring facade, hiding their true selves beneath a mask that draws in codependent partners like me, who cling to the hope of rekindling an idealized version of the relationship.
I’ve learned the importance of recognizing my inherent goodness through all this. It’s comforting to know that healing and moving forward are possible, even in the face of the shame and confusion from being deceived. I remind myself that I am worthy of love and I can find a path to brighter days ahead.
Peace be with you!