My Inner Torch
My Inner Torch offers direct and personal insight with help for those of us in a relationship with someone who is undiagnosed/diagnosed with a Cluster B Personality Disorder. This is a safe place to come for words of inspiration that draw from my personal experiences and is produced to gain understanding and to find direction as we navigate through the often difficult relationships with those we love who suffer with a Cluster B personality disorder that includes BPD and NPD. PLEASE NOTE: This podcast is NOT for those who suffer with these disorders. This podcast is for survivors of these challenging and difficult relationships.
My Inner Torch
You CAN'T change a Cluster B's Spots
🎯 Key Takeaways
Core Points:
I accept that I cannot change someone with Cluster B pathology.
I redirect my hope toward my own growth and freedom.
Personality disorders are deeply ingrained and resistant to change.
Trying to change them comes at a significant personal cost.
I shift my focus from fixing them to protecting myself.
Acceptance means seeing reality clearly, not approving of harmful behavior.
🔍 Summary
The Impossibility of Changing Cluster B's
I’ve learned that I cannot change someone with Cluster B pathology. This realization, though painful, has freed me from a cycle of hope that kept me trapped. Instead of waiting for their change, I’ve redirected my energy toward my own empowerment and healing.
Understanding Cluster B Pathology
Cluster B personality disorders—narcissistic, borderline, histrionic, and antisocial—are deeply ingrained patterns formed early in life. They shape how these individuals experience reality and are not simply behavioral choices that can be unlearned through insight or willpower alone.
Why I Struggle with Acceptance
I once believed that if I explained things differently or they healed their trauma, change would follow. I’ve since realized that insight doesn’t guarantee emotional integration or lasting change in cluster bee pathology. Understanding something intellectually is very different from transforming it emotionally.
Borderline and Narcissistic Dynamics
I’ve observed that borderline patterns involve intense emotions and fear of abandonment, while narcissistic patterns involve intolerable shame and the need to protect self-image. These patterns tend to harden rather than soften over time, even with the best intentions.
The Myth of Time Healing All Wounds
I once hoped that time, maturity, or love would soften their patterns. I’ve learned that personality disorders don’t mature like healthy personalities do. Without sustained, specialized treatment, core patterns typically remain unchanged.
The Cost of Trying to Change Them
Attempting to change someone with Cluster B pathology has cost me deeply—through self-doubt, emotional exhaustion, identity loss, and anxiety. I found myself shrinking to keep the peace, trading my authenticity for temporary calm.
The Only Possible Change: Acceptance and Self-Preservation
I’ve found healing by accepting what I cannot change and focusing on protecting myself. This acceptance isn’t defeat; it’s clarity. By seeing the relationship as it truly is, I’ve reclaimed my energy and begun my journey toward freedom and self-respect.