My Inner Torch
My Inner Torch offers direct and personal insight with help for those of us in a relationship with someone who is undiagnosed/diagnosed with a Cluster B Personality Disorder. This is a safe place to come for words of inspiration that draw from my personal experiences and is produced to gain understanding and to find direction as we navigate through the often difficult relationships with those we love who suffer with a Cluster B personality disorder that includes BPD and NPD. PLEASE NOTE: This podcast is NOT for those who suffer with these disorders. This podcast is for survivors of these challenging and difficult relationships.
My Inner Torch
Pathological Love: When Love Still Hurts!
🎯 Key Takeaways
Core Points:
- Pathological love is harmful and confusing—not just passionate or imperfect love.
- In cluster B relationships, love becomes a survival tool and emotional regulator, often one-sided.
- Healthy love grows slowly and tolerates imperfection; pathological love accelerates quickly and punishes vulnerability.
- I recognize pathological love through emotional whiplash, love as proof of worth, and crisis bonding.
- Intermittent rewards and fear keep me hooked, not safety.
- I cope by shifting my focus: stop chasing highs, don’t take withdrawals personally, and trust patterns over promises.
🔍 Summary
Understanding Pathological Love
Pathological love isn’t about loving too much—it’s about existing in a dysregulated system where love becomes a survival tool. In cluster B relationships, love often flows one way and can even be weaponized. I’m learning to see this clearly and distinguish it from genuine, healthy connection.
Healthy vs. Pathological Love
Healthy love grows slowly, tolerates imperfection, and survives conflict. Pathological love accelerates rapidly, collapses under stress, and punishes vulnerability. That urgency I once mistook for depth? It’s actually a red flag.
Illustrative Scenarios
I recognize myself in three patterns. “Emotional whiplash” is the jarring shift from intimacy to distance with gaslighting mixed in. “Love as proof of worth” means I’ve tied my value to managing my partner’s emotions. “Crisis bonding” is the false closeness during emergencies that disappears once the crisis ends.
Mechanisms of Being Hooked
Intermittent rewards train my nervous system to stay alert, creating a bond based on anticipation rather than safety. This cycle feels deep because it engages fear and longing, but that’s survival attachment, not true intimacy. Cluster B personalities pull me close for regulation, then push me away for control—making their love both solution and threat.
Coping Strategies
I’m changing my interpretation rather than making drastic decisions. I’m stopping myself from chasing emotional highs, not taking withdrawals personally, measuring love by stability instead of intensity, and grounding myself in observable patterns. Asking myself honest questions helps: Does this feel calming or consuming? Does it expand or shrink me? Am I safer or more anxious? These answers help me see the dysregulation clearly. I’m learning that I’m not loving wrong—I’m loving within a system that can’t sustain it. And I’m not alone or broken.