My Inner Torch
My Inner Torch offers direct and personal insight with help for those of us in a relationship with someone who is undiagnosed/diagnosed with a Cluster B Personality Disorder. This is a safe place to come for words of inspiration that draw from my personal experiences and is produced to gain understanding and to find direction as we navigate through the often difficult relationships with those we love who suffer with a Cluster B personality disorder that includes BPD and NPD. PLEASE NOTE: This podcast is NOT for those who suffer with these disorders. This podcast is for survivors of these challenging and difficult relationships.
My Inner Torch
CPTSD...are you suffering from it?
🎯 Key Takeaways
Core Points:
- CPTSD from prolonged relational trauma is an adaptation, not a personal failing.
- CPTSD stems from long-term emotional abuse and feelings of powerlessness, not single events.
- I can recognize subtle cluster B abuse tactics like gaslighting and devaluation.
- I heal by rebuilding my sense of self, not by focusing on the abuser.
- I’m reclaiming trust in my perceptions and intuition; emotional dysregulation is a survival response.
- My healing is non-linear—it involves self-compassion, rebuilding boundaries, and seeking safety.
🔍 Summary
Understanding CPTSD from Relational Trauma
CPTSD arises from prolonged emotional harm within relationships, not from a single event. I’m learning how years of manipulation, entrapment, and devaluation gradually eroded my sense of self. Unlike PTSD, CPTSD developed because escape felt impossible, leaving me psychologically dominated by the abuser.
The Nature of Cluster B Abuse
I’m recognizing the subtle yet devastating tactics I experienced: gaslighting, silent treatments, blame-shifting, and devaluation disguised as feedback. This abuse systematically dismantled my identity while creating emotional dependence, making it incredibly difficult to leave.
Impact on Identity and Emotions
Prolonged invalidation has left me struggling with emotional regulation and self-trust. I’ve internalized criticism and shame, often believing I’m the problem. These protective responses—anxiety, numbness, or emotional overwhelm—developed because my emotions felt unsafe.
Rebuilding and Healing
My healing involves reclaiming my identity and emotional safety. I’m learning that withdrawal or difficulty with closeness are protective mechanisms, not flaws. I’m rebuilding boundaries at my own pace, recognizing that saying no is strength, not avoidance. My growth is non-linear, and I’m gently returning to myself with compassion.